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January 2009 
now what?
Posted on Jun 24th, 2007
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beauty
beauty
the end of month is bearing down upon us once again, and so - once i had completed my journaling and read my daily guide in the science of mind magazine - i leafed thru it to make sure i had read all the articles. first i found the one about getting out of debt - for some reason hadn't read that one. hmmmm certainly not because i didn't 'need' to ^_^ then i perused the interview with brian - yes, i had read that one. however, as i reread the first few question & answers, i realized i had completely 'missed' what he had said with regard to this site being a place to get 'help'/be supported with regard to doing what i love AND making a living while doing it. (i can tell this is rather confronting stuff for me to write cause i find myself making lots of typing errors! or maybe my fingers are just too cold and sleepy?)
you see, i have been feeling almost 'guilty' about having my webpage address within my profile - blatant advertising?? i mean, this is a page about spirituality and changing the world - not about self-promotion.
and then there was the one page 'article' with the title "you are important" and this:
"perhaps if we gave up thinking that some skills and talents are more important than others, we might begin to see the fabulous wonder of the universe. for instance, is someone who can write a good book more important that the person who reads that book to a child? is the influential politician expressing more of God's love than the woman who creates a lovely garden that delights the senses of her neighbors, and also provides a habitat for birds?
if we can begin to accept our own significance, we can begin to discover the unique way that we each contribute to making the world a better place"
can that possibly include something as 'insignificant' as an applique pattern??? if i am authentic in my speaking - it must. as in, the speaking of my purpose and my beliefs.
and here come the tears, again. is that my soul crying? tears of joy that it may at last be getting free? hopefully not just tears of remorse over 'time lost'! or of resignation that it doesn't matter what the insight - i won't be able to live it anyway.
i know it's just a matter of choice - which choice must somehow withstand the onslaught of my deeply imbedded (core?) and ancient 'false' belief that 'no matter what i do, it's never enough'. a battle waged every moment, it seems.
so i will speak here, the choice of joy and renewed committment to what i 'do' - my committment to beauty.
on a lighter note, i will report the class a complete success. i didn't count, but i think it was full (20) and as far as i know - everyone was 'happy' when they left. lots of thanks for what they had gotten out of the class. and i sold a few patterns/kits. ^_^ and got invited to participate in their quilt show (as a vendor) next year. life is good.
love and beauty!
j
you see, i have been feeling almost 'guilty' about having my webpage address within my profile - blatant advertising?? i mean, this is a page about spirituality and changing the world - not about self-promotion.
and then there was the one page 'article' with the title "you are important" and this:
"perhaps if we gave up thinking that some skills and talents are more important than others, we might begin to see the fabulous wonder of the universe. for instance, is someone who can write a good book more important that the person who reads that book to a child? is the influential politician expressing more of God's love than the woman who creates a lovely garden that delights the senses of her neighbors, and also provides a habitat for birds?
if we can begin to accept our own significance, we can begin to discover the unique way that we each contribute to making the world a better place"
can that possibly include something as 'insignificant' as an applique pattern??? if i am authentic in my speaking - it must. as in, the speaking of my purpose and my beliefs.
and here come the tears, again. is that my soul crying? tears of joy that it may at last be getting free? hopefully not just tears of remorse over 'time lost'! or of resignation that it doesn't matter what the insight - i won't be able to live it anyway.
i know it's just a matter of choice - which choice must somehow withstand the onslaught of my deeply imbedded (core?) and ancient 'false' belief that 'no matter what i do, it's never enough'. a battle waged every moment, it seems.
so i will speak here, the choice of joy and renewed committment to what i 'do' - my committment to beauty.
on a lighter note, i will report the class a complete success. i didn't count, but i think it was full (20) and as far as i know - everyone was 'happy' when they left. lots of thanks for what they had gotten out of the class. and i sold a few patterns/kits. ^_^ and got invited to participate in their quilt show (as a vendor) next year. life is good.
love and beauty!
j
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